I'd Be Screaming, But My Throat Hurts

Today is one of the most stressful days I've had all semester. Tonight for anatomy lab, I have a sketchbook with drawings from every lab covered so far, studying for the most recent labs, and review questions for those labs.  Just for tonight. It may not seem like much, but trust me: that is a lot of work.  So what am I doing? Typing about how much work I have to do instead of actually doing it. Oh, and I have a bunch of French homework due in 19 minutes. How absolutely wonderful.  And let's not forget to top it off with a horrible, crappy mood, and sickness. yup. All that, and I'm sick. Isn't that great? I think it's the best timing ever.  Oh, and I have a job interview tomorrow. Hopefully my throat will recover well enough for me to speak with some sense of decency, and not having to cough every three words.

OK, I'm done complaining. Time to go to french.

I'm Done.

I need a week without school. I need a break. I am so sick of the tedium. It's so repetitive. Boring. I do not want it. I want to leave it all behind and do something with my life, and not be stuck at school. Why am I here, anyway? Oh yea, society says I need a piece of paper that declares me competent at what I'm "learning".

I'm not learning anything.

I want out.

But I'll stick with it anyway. As much as I hate it, I'll still do it. I will survive the tedium, and get through it. With God's help. Because I could not possibly remain sane without him.  Besides, he's the only one who's helping me with my loneliness. I couldn't possibly live without him. I can't.

I sat for over ten hours watching a stupid TV show instead of doing the homework that I needed to do. I got up to eat, and use the restroom.

I'm pathetic.

and I need someone to talk to. Please?

All these names in my phone, and even more on my facebook. Who can I talk to? I don't know. I don't want to annoy anyone with my incredibly pathetic life. They probably have better things to do than listen to me talk about how I'm not happy with my great life.  I don't even have any school-induced debt. No, I don't know why I'm complaining.  I'm just lonely, and sick of it all.

Let's go on an adventure.

Thankful

I am so thankful that my life has been easy. my family has never had to worry about money issues, my extended family are all functional, and the hardest thing I've had to go through in my life is dealing with my own laziness and unwillingness to do anything.  Seriously, I am so thankful.

So far, school has been decent. I detest chemistry with a fiery hatred, but statistics is easy. Mostly because it consists of plugging numbers into a formula and pressing the equal button on the calculator. Actually, I'm about to start some chem homework right now. It's pretty easy homework. just write a brief summery of an online lecture, and answer three questions. Oh, wow. This particular one only has the summary.  I like writing the summaries. I use brief, couple word sentences. Basically taking notes. I never write an actual, formatted, paragraphs with proper sentence structure and punctuation.

22 minutes later, at 9:57pm, chemistry homework is done.
time for statistics, which actually requires me to get off the computer.
eww